Closure?!

this one word got me into my first big phadda with the boss! although it didnt develop into anything serious it was yet another reminder of how badly my life needs direction. im thinking whether i should reconsider my plans to leave March 30.

eid was uneventful as usual. met up with some cousins after quite some time...that was fun! anyway, i now realize that i have been played. people have been extremely selfish and yes, I have been stabbed in the back. i have given more than my share in maintaining my friendships but i wonder if anything has been reciprocated. and strangely enough i dont find myself in the forgiving-and-forgetting mood this time. i might have my priorities sorted but that is certainly not how i've been treated. lets see if settling a score is my style as well cos it sure as hell is an ancestral trait! there's a limit to how much a Langah can stand being taken for granted and its time to rethink stuff; my worldview before anything else. if i sacrifice my wants and feelings at the altar of friendship the least i deserve is some respect and gratitude. yup...closure is what is finally needed!

sooli chadhaee ludkand taan day
hadiyaan medeyaan kudkand taan day
be-dard chun be-wuss dee mun
kuttha jo haee phudkand taan day