Of locks and keys...

taaleef e nuskha-haye wafa ker raha thaa mein
majmooa e khayal abhee fard fard thaa

- Ghalib

revelation? realisation?

You don't have what it takes. Admit it, a person with zero ambition, half-baked brains and limited horizons cannot for long delude himself with fake visions of greatness, of doing something worthwhile with his existence. Mediocrity is your lot in life but you refuse to see it. You who finds it hard to survive in an environment where you are protected, bolstered even, harboring dreams of seeing the world, facing it, challenging it? Fat chance. It is your destiny to continue to stumble in the narrow confines of your own head asking yourself over and over again why you have inhibitions about things that seem to come naturally to most of the people around you. And after so many years of looking into yourself, the answer should be plain enough. It is time to toe the line. In your head, you picture yourself as a crazy hippie intellectual who is too cool to care about anything in the world and you think nobody can see through that, no one can tell what you say apart from what it really is, bullshit? Who are u trying to fool but yourself? It is time to step off of any and all pedestals that you may have put yourself at. It is time to get up off of your lazy butt, grab whatever comes your way by the balls and make it work for yourself. After all, it is a struggle to survive. You don't want your inflexibility, your unreasonable stubbornness to be the end of you. That which does not bend is ultimately broken. But then, as you are undoubtedly sniggering away to yourself, who wants to survive anyway?