Friday, May 13, 2022

the dying Sutlej valley!!

I give my two cents on how the Sutlej basin is facing a water catastrophe because of flawed water policy from the get-go on a vlog with NayaDaur. 




If the people of the Seraiki belt are underprivileged in this country, within the Seraiki belt the people of Rohi have it the worst. They are politically dominated by canal colony settlers who hold them in a political and economic stranglehold. They themselves are mainly nomads, herders and small farmers with absolutely no one to speak for them. 

Wednesday, November 17, 2021

birthday '21

I lie
as a vehicle for growth
I lie
as a means to survive,
to get what I want;
and lately,
I've witnessed myself lying
by pure force of habit.

But today,
I lie sick in bed,
contemplating all the times
that I've lied to myself.

I've lied myself into believing
that there are ideals loftier
than the pursuit of self-interests,
that there are cut & dried notions
of right and wrong,
that there is something noble
in doing what others expect you to,
want you to,
to walk a course others chart for you.

While the truth is,
there is nothing larger than the self;
all else is the means,
the self is the end. 
Everything must serve
the gratification of the self,
the projection of the self,
the fulfillment of the self.

At 39, it's probably too late 
for a chronic people-pleaser,
a spineless pushover
like me
to fully embrace
this hard reality.

But, heaven help me,
I will make
selfish pricks
out of my kids.
And I hope
other parents of my generation
are doing the same,
for the good
can't exist
without the bad;
altruism only makes sense
when juxtaposed with
selfishness.

And in so doing,
if we hasten the end of humanity,
so be it.

Sunday, September 19, 2021

shaazi

What had been fermenting for two years and a half is finally out! "Shaazi" got published at The Aleph Review today. Really hope it packs a punch. Any resemblance to characters, living or dead, is purely coincidental!


Owe a debt of gratitude to The Aleph Review team who were extremely patient with me and my schedules through the editorial process.

Tuesday, August 03, 2021

Ghadeer

God's letter to His Friend, the Prophet Mohammad, on the 18th Day of Zil-Haj, 10 AH, to declare the vicegerency of Ali to the Muslims, in the imagination of legendary Seraiki poet, Ferdowsi e Pakistan, Saeen Irshad Jhandeer.

بعالٰی خدمت حضورِ حضرت حبیب محبوب محترم اے
جنابِ اعلٰی حضورِ والا تہاݙے توڑیں ضروری کم اے

اِتھاں وی خیر اے تے خیر منڳداں تہاݙی پل پل اتے مدامی
 تے ݙیݙھی پردہ بخیر ہوسی نہال ہوسن سڄݨ تمامی
تے پیار ٻالاں کوں میݙی طرفوں تے گھر درود و دعا سلامی 
گھدی ہے مکتوب میݙا آندا تیݙا سنہڑوُ میݙا پیامی
ݙواہے فی الفور وقت اینکوں منڳے جݙاں اذنِ ہم کلامی
تے حال سارا سڄݨ پیارا میں کیتا مکتوب وچ رقم اے
تہاݙے توڑیں ضروری کم اے

گو مُد گزر ڳئی یاد ہوسی غریب خانے تے آئے ہاوے
قدم ہا رنجہ حضور کیتا ہزاراں احسان لاۓ ہاوے
زمیں دی عظمت دی بارگاہ وچ فلک دے جھنڈے جھکاۓ ہاوے
تے دستِ پنجہ ملیندے ہوئیں زمیں دو تک مسکراۓ ہاوے
اٹھاراں سالاں دی رات تھئی ہئ جاں آئے تے ول سدھائے ہاوے
اڄݨ وی ممنون ہاں تہاݙا، وݙی نوازش وݙا کرم اے
تہاݙے توڑیں ضروری کم اے

جِتھاں اے خط خیر دا آن پہنچے، اٹھاں کوں سئیں ہُش کراوݨے چا
ول پلاݨاں دا جوڑ مِنبر اَتے خط اُتے چڑھ سݨاوݨے چا
ہے ہر کوئی رعیت، علّی ہے مولا، تے ہر کہیں توں مناوݨے چا
جیہڑا نہ منے اونہی توں پہلے بخن دا نعٰرہ مراوݨے چا
تے سارے الحاج صوفیاں کوں سݙا کے کولہوں ٻلاہوݨے چا
منیسی فرمان تیݙا میݙا مگر او جیہڑا حلالی دم اے
تہاݙے توڑیں ضروری کم اے

اے عام خط نئیں ایں خط کوں تائیں میں خاصکر سئیں ٹھہا کے لکھئم
امر دی لوح نال قلم قضا نال مَس مَوَدت دی لا کے لکھئم
ہم  آپ پڑھیا دُرود پہلے تے قدسیاں توں پڑھا کے لکھئم
تیݙے وصی دا، میݙے ولی دا، علّی دا نعٰرہ مرا کے لکھئم
سجیلا سانول سجیلے ویلے سجیلے خط کوں سجا کے لکھئم
 نہ لاڈلا سوہݨا رس پوویں توں جو خط دا لہجہ وٹا کے لکھئم
تاریخی خط ہے، تاریخی ݙینہہ ہے، تاریخی قرطاس تے قلم ہے
تہاݙے توڑیں ضروری کم اے

Monday, June 28, 2021

shauq da mul

At a friend's request, translated the following Urdu Poem into Seraiki:
ہک شاخ تے ہک ݙینہہ کھل پیا ہا، تیݙا وعدہ وانڳ گلاب
تے تتلی تھی اوں تے جھمدا ہا، میݙا شوق بے حساب

ہݨ خاک دو ݙیکھ پیاں رلدیاں ہن، اوں پھل دیاں بے رنگ پتیاں
 ترٹے پکھ میݙے پروانے دے، موت کول ہارئے، دھوڑ وچ غلطاں

Seraikast was also very kind to share the translation on Facebook & Twitter.

Friday, January 01, 2021

Child Sexual Abuse: Policy Prescriptions

My two cents on the immediate policy interventions needed to begin tackling the phenomenon of child sexual abuse in Pakistan. Hope it isn't just vox clamantis in deserto.

Wednesday, November 18, 2020

birthday '20 +1

If the fresh breath of the morning breeze
wishes to shower the landscape of your mind
with rose-petals,
let it

If an abandoned torment,
buried in the crevices of a bygone time,
wishes to burn bright again,
let it

As if only with a stranger,
sit before me for a fleeting moment,
or two

Although, my regret at having lost you,
the void that fills my soul,
will only get worse,
once we part again

Although, every word we speak
will stumble
on the invisible obstacle
of all those that can’t be said

I will not remind you
of pledges made & unmade
of faith kept & unkept

But, if through the gathered dust of time,
my tired eyes try to speak to you
upon the first instance of sight,
you may choose to listen,
or not.

And if words fail me completely,
in that moment,
you may choose to speak to me,
or not.


- Murder at my hand of Faiz's "koi ashiq kisi mahbuba se"


Friday, November 06, 2020

Seraiki Podcast # 1

Cherry be popped! My first ever podcast and on a subject that is very near to my heart. Seraiki marginalization is real. The denial of the Seraiki identity is real. The culture that is at the geographical center of this country cannot afford to remain silent or invisible anymore. 

So boys, when you grow up and see this, know that this was a proud first for your father. Hope for more visible and forceful engagement here on out.

Nawabzada Hassan Hussein Qureshi is spearheading the initiative and putting in sincere effort to make these podcasts happen. The object is to reach the masses and not just be an echo chamber for the Seraiki elites. People who arrive here are requested to follow @Seraikast's Twitter Handle and share the podcast as widely as possible on social media.

The video and audio of the podcast I participated in on November 5, 2020:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9qdqRjRL08k&feature=youtu.be



Listen to "Seraiki Podcast Episode 3" on Spreaker.

https://www.spreaker.com/user/seraikast/seraiki-podcast-episode-3


Click here for the original @Seraikast tweet with the video-link to the podcast. And here, for the tweet with the audio-link.


Click @Seraikast for their Twitter profile.

Tuesday, April 28, 2020

The Old Man and the Pipal II


The Pipal is dying. Every strong dust-storm exacts its toll, taking away a branch, a formerly sturdy bough, never to be replaced again. The Pipal is dying; of thirst. Standing tall atop a creek-side mound, its verdant opulence was once visible from a mile away. Ever since the river ran dry, its roots now struggle to drink from the water beneath the earth. The sharp, soulless instruments of human machination have cut down on its lofty stature. And for the better, because it would have dried up altogether had it been allowed to keep its regal size. Though it still hosts life in variegated form, its denizens are not as numerous as they used to be – land around it is parched, and sustenance, in short supply. The Pipal is now a broken shield against the excesses of summer. Where its shade was once impenetrable for the pitiless summer sun, beams of hot, bright light now break through to the ground. Those who seek refuge underneath it must now shift their positions with the shifting time of day. Unconditional sanctuary, the Pipal does not afford now to give. But still, it is a symbol of stubborn hope; the weathered mast of an ancient galleon not yet sunk.

The old man is now a memory, an echo across time. But he is not a memory that fades, or an echo that dies away after reverberating a few times. His memory is a light that guides, the echo of his words still ringing deep in the minds of men, his image occupying a place reserved for majesty in their hearts. He remains the arbiter of right and wrong, the touchstone for all strategy, a source of clarity in all times of confusion. For many he remains that same rich voice that struck fear in their hearts when thundering in anger, and inspired awe in them when speaking softly. He remains the balancer of things, the reconciler of irreconcilably inimical forces, the keeper of order in the midst of chaos. He lives on not as a bent & broken old man, but as a tall prince, spine straight like an arrow, walking with majestic dignity, his sons following at a respectful distance, each step falling heavy on the spirits of his enemies, bringing joy to the hearts of his friends. Even in death, his stature continues to dwarf friend & foe alike, jealousy getting even more pronounced with the latter. For in life, they found solace in reviling a person, while in death, he is a hero of legend that none of their malicious words & deeds can harm.

Famed 13th century Sufi poet, Amir Khusrau, when writing about love, spiritual and temporal, presents an idea that mirrors the relationship between the old man and the Pipal: a fusion of souls. Khusrau writes, “I have become you, and you me; I am the body, you are the soul; No one can say hereafter, that I am someone, and you, someone else.” It may be said, therefore, that if the Pipal continues to live despite all odds, dutifully doing what it is expected to do, it seeks its nourishment not from the increasingly stingy earth in which it is planted, but from the immortal heart of a mortal man. The cool wind in its leaves is an echo of the old man’s wisdom, its shade, an embodiment of the old man’s essence itself.

Read the first post, here.

Sunday, November 17, 2019

birthday '19

I am not jealous
of what came before me.

Come with a man 
on your shoulders,
come with a hundred men in your hair,
come with a thousand men 
between your breasts and your feet,
come like a river
full of drowned men
which flows down to the wild sea,
to the eternal surf, 
to Time!

Bring them all
to where I am waiting for you;
we shall always be alone,
we shall always be you and I
alone on earth
to start our life!

Pablo Neruda

Saturday, August 17, 2019

ye kya jageh hai dosto?!

Is this a human dwelling?
This place I call home?

Where my life grates on, day by day

Where all I see
are mindless animals,
and humans are scarce,
like trees in a desert.

This place,
which trust has renounced,
and love has long since forsaken;
where the vain control resources,
and the merciless play at justice;
where friendship lacks all charm,
and blood relations are just as dull;
where children are
their fathers’ enemies;
where the savior kills,
the bully leads,
the godman trades,
selling his edicts
to the highest bidder;
where the houses of God
are unsafe for His creation;
where cold-blooded murderers
call dibs on heaven,
for killing His people;

This can’t be a human dwelling,
This place I call home.

Has a plague visited this land,
this kaleidoscope of color,
this bright rainbow of diversity?

Yes, there has been a plague,
a vicious swarm of locusts,
eating away all our shining shades,
our dappled hues,
save one,
which is now the color of everything.

And so,
black is white,
so is blue,
and red too.

The animals are white,
in their ignorant bliss,
and so am I,
can’t refute this.

And so must be anyone
who dreams of life,
like I once did,
as a mesh of color.

His spirit is to be broken,
his thinking set right,
he must be brought to heel,
and bathed in that insipid,
colorless,
puritanical
white!

While I,
I keep asking myself,
is this the realization of my dreams,
this dwelling of humans,
this place I call home
where I can’t even recognize myself
anymore,
and my life grates on, day by day?


Loosely translated from the Seraiki of Zafar Jatoi's timeless verse "pata nai ay kay jhaeen wasti hay?", on the recommendations of a friend. The only video link of Jatoi sahib reciting this poem that I could find is below:

Friday, August 02, 2019

twitter verse!

Inspiration came upon me while on the throne this morning. Endless, moralistic talk will get us nowhere. True change, a true challenge to the established orders of oppression, demands action, and sacrifice!

باطل کی سیاہ رات میں حق کی تنویر بھی ہو
انالحق کا بیاں، مقابل شمشیر بھی ہو
نوائے خلق خود کاتب تقدیر بھی ہو
یزیدیت کا قلعہ، ہم سے تسخیر بھی ہو
ممکن ہے تبھی جب کوئی حق پرست، دل فگار
متاع جان لٹائے، کوئی شبیر بھی ہو

Sunday, December 09, 2018

sasti khushaamad

Khud aap jo likhey hain aankhon ka taraana
Ye dil liye jaye kahan lachaar divaana?

Inn aankhon ki midh ho gi kya bandey bashar se?
Jin aankhon ka mol nahi saara zamaana

Inn aankhon ki masti k mastaney toh hazaaron
Par jal k mar jaaney ko bas aik parvaana?

Roodad mujh se pooch na akhyon k milan ki
Qissa alam naak hai, garchey hai suhana

Woh baat jo tere ang ang ne mujh se chhupayi
Bebaak teri aankhon ne keh daala fasaana

Akhyon se lari akhyan toh akhyan huyeen purnam
Ik roag umr bhar ka banna, akhyon ka laraana

Bemaar meri rooh hai, tere dar pe hee khari hai
Aur tu hai k kehta hai, mar jao, tab aana

Roohon ka milan na sahi, jismon ka hee ho le
Maana k dil mar chukey, jism toh hain tawaana

Ashiq ki nigah aur hai, mullah ki zubaan aur
Bas chashm e khuda aik hai, yakta o yagaana

Dil e vehshi se kaho tark karey nala o faryad
Harjayi hai aisa, na apna hua, na hee begaana

Saturday, November 17, 2018

birthday '18


Act I – Canine

Who doesn’t love dogs? I know I do. And why do humans love dogs so much? Because dogs, in a weirdly anthropomorphic way, suffer from a feeble sense of the self.  Nothing is more gratifying to the human ego than having something or someone worship you unquestioningly, love you unconditionally and grovel constantly at your feet. And a dog’s entire existence revolves around catering to this most vulgar aspect of human nature. A dog’s love is seldom for its own kind. It reserves its love almost entirely for the humans in its life. Unless, it is kept by a particularly jealous sort of a human who teaches it to love just one and be mean to all others. Feed it, don’t feed it, beat it, lock it up, you will always find a dog begging for your affections first, and its own sustenance second. Sure, if you starve it too much, you might find it eating out of the trash one day. And while you may tut-tut at the damn thing for not having better manners, or punish it even, the dog only did what it is genetically wired to do: feed. Even in doing so, your place at the center of its universe is by no means compromised because a dog does not understand blame, or cause-and-effect.

But a dog, like all things living, has its limitations. For instance, you can’t hogtie one and throw it down a well, or abandon an inconvenient one by the wayside as you speed away chasing mirages, and then expect the mutt to come back to you by itself, as and when you want. It is not that that dog does not want to return to you; it would probably sign away its soul to perdition for a chance at coming back to you. The only problem, the manner of its repudiation at your hand dictates that the dog absolutely has no means of making the return journey. It is literally impossible as per the laws of the universe. And so, you become solely responsible, not just for the slow, miserable, often lifelong death you have condemned the animal to, but also for your own pangs of conscience and your yearnings for uncomplicated love especially when the transient possibilities you were pursuing have come to nothing.

And this applies to all dogs, mongrels or pedigreed, high-born or strays, royal or proletarian. When you steal yourself away from the center of a dog’s universe, all you leave behind is the pretense of life, wretched, loveless, brutish. And in that, at least, I am a kindred spirit to the unwanted dogs of the earth.


Act II – Duty

I am not looking for a mid-life crisis,
or expensive roller coaster rides
that will only end badly for me.

I want no part
of your cold-blooded cirque des émotions,
where you are in perpetual need
of a short-lived reprieve.

Nor do I fancy myself
the safety valve
to your pressure-cooker life.
I know full well who the first casualty will be
when that thing begins to scream.

I am fully absorbed,
curating the cemetery of my mind,
where I stumble about,
gravestone to gravestone,
mourning bits of me
that lie rotting underneath.


Act III – Requiem

While on the subject of decay, you know what continues to fester? This feeling that while you were a monster, a bastard, for having been angry when anger was all that was left to you, for all the hurt that your rage caused them, they were absolutely justified in turning a deaf ear to your helpless howls of pain, in totally disregarding the ferment inside of you that was wrecking your emotional constitution, because greener pastures beckoned to them with promising options and more attractive possibilities. For one, there are no other options in love; and if there are, it was never love to begin with but a self-indulgent market decision. And second, ever since the dawn of time, the jury has been out on what could be more offensive to a person: the faraway, spasmodic yelps of a wounded animal, or the whimsically cold, dismissive manner in which they wounded it, with the cheerful gravy of ‘I always was heartless this way’ on top. You can’t murder somebody and then go, ‘hey, I did you the favor of killing you silently, softly; did you have to make so much noise during your protracted demise?’ History is replete with examples of how people bring themselves to detest those they have wronged, dehumanizing themselves along the way; of how even the tortured breathing of the oppressed feels like lèse-majesté to the oppressor.

So, whatever you have confessed yourself to be over time, cold, selfish, narcissistic, always on the lookout for a better deal, a ‘chutiya’, in so many words, please know that it is you who has to live with yourself primarily, not even the option that is your current ego trip. It is you who has to look yourself in the mirror every day. And for someone with a different face for each and everything in their life, expediently changing with needs, desires and ambitions, one wonders whether you even recognize yourself when you do.

As for the wounded, with time, wounds become scars, and scars become friends that tell the most exciting stories. Anger, when gets too toxic for the soul, abates, leaving behind enlightenment and peace. But the facts, the facts remain as beacons to guide you for next when the fundamentally dishonest chutiya surfaces to make you doubt the foundations of your existence.


Act IV – Salud

*clink*




Act V – Curtains

Why do you stand there,
over my corpse,
looking outraged,
half a teardrop
in your eye?

Didn’t you know
when you stab someone
in the heart
they fucking die!?

Sunday, March 18, 2018

to the Other


Show your face, 
you, 
my comrade 
in the torments 
of her unspeakable beauty, 
which haunts my heart 
with a thousand fantasies, 
which blinds me 
to the world 
and its foolish tricks.

You are familiar with the path 
her lustful spirit treads, 
that shines bright in her afterglow, 
mocking my eyes 
for futilely worshiping 
the ground beneath her feet.

You bask in her closeness;
you breathe in the air
which mournfully bears 
the fragrance of her body. 

The moon sees you 
from its perch in the sky, 
as it once saw the dalliances 
of many an unfulfilled night.

You’ve touched that face, 
those cheeks and lips, 
to the memories of which 
I devote my life. 
You’ve beheld those eyes, 
that aloof, bewitching gaze; 
you know my life is not a waste.

The agonies of love 
have been equally kind to us, 
to you and I; 
a kindness that knows no limits,
or end. 
What this passion gives to me, 
or takes, 
I can hope to explain to no other 
but you, my friend.

It humbles me, 
this love, 
and makes me one with the beaten. 
It brings me new friends: 
melancholy,
and an endless ache of the heart. 
It acquaints me 
with the dishonor of abjection, 
and reveals to me
the cruel mysteries 
behind ashen faces 
and helpless sighs.

When they huddle together 
and weep, 
those whose eyes won’t shed tears, 
for fear; 
when the sustenance of the meek 
is snatched from their mouths, 
by the beasts 
bred of wealth, 
and stealth; 
when the honest toils of love 
are sold short, 
and the streets run red 
with the blood of the powerless; 

a fire consumes my soul, 
a rage 
I cannot contain; 
so patient through the travails of love, 
why my heart now loses control, 
I cannot explain.

An Inspiration from Faiz Ahmed Faiz's "Raqib Se!"



Friday, November 17, 2017

birthday '17

shaa'er ka jashn e salgirah hai, sharaab la
mansab, khitaab, rutba, unhein kya nahi mila
bas naqs hai toh itna k mamdooh ne koi
misraa kisi kitaab k shayaa'n nahi likha

- Faiz

Sunday, October 29, 2017

offended, outraged, totally pissed off!

Our Fleeting Moral Outrage; Our Collective Social Amnesia

https://dailytimes.com.pk/131230/fleeting-moral-outrage-collective-social-amnesia/

And now, a draft of my thank you note to the Daily Times:

"Dear DT! If your subs are going to go fuckin' nuts on editing a submission, at least pass their masterwork by the original author before publishing it for the whole fucking world to see. You've defaced this piece beyond recognition. Everybody who's reading this is thinking this Multani boy doesn't even know jack about basic tenses, much less stringing together a decent sentence. It's moolah ffs, not mullah!! Moolah means money. How does mullah even make sense where your bachas have inserted it? Piece-of-shit editing! And screw you for ruining my most heartfelt rant yet. Love."

To send or not to send, that is the question.

The original, as I wrote it, is at the link for fair comparison: Our Fleeting Moral Outrage